I feel like the walls are closing in on me. It has become hard to breathe. Usually at times like these, I become introvert and isolate myself. But this time that seems to awaken even more problems. Talking about the problems makes them grow, cuz people offer the wrong kind of solutions. I cannot believe how late I am with everything in life… how it takes too long for me to realize things… how I always realize the most important things in life after a lot of damage has been made. I just don’t enjoy living my own life anymore. It has become a pain. I don’t like it. Something is seriously wrong and I can’t even understand it. My life has become a game of Domino; every single thing I do affects all these people. Why did I let it get this far? Why was I so extremely stupid? I hate hate hate myself for having lead me here. There is so much self-hatred inside me right now, I feel like I wanna explode.