I feel like the walls are closing in on me. It has become hard to breathe. Usually at times like these, I become introvert and isolate myself. But this time that seems to awaken even more problems. Talking about the problems makes them grow, cuz people offer the wrong kind of solutions. I cannot believe how late I am with everything in life… how it takes too long for me to realize things… how I always realize the most important things in life after a lot of damage has been made. I just don’t enjoy living my own life anymore. It has become a pain. I don’t like it. Something is seriously wrong and I can’t even understand it. My life has become a game of Domino; every single thing I do affects all these people. Why did I let it get this far? Why was I so extremely stupid? I hate hate hate myself for having lead me here. There is so much self-hatred inside me right now, I feel like I wanna explode.
Do explode.
Wish I knew how to!
I have been down that road before, its okay to hate one self but don’t let that feeling take over so that you could think things through effectively without anything blinding you
Yeah… fortunately those moments don’t last for too long…